Best Health Blogs of 2015 Contest

New year, new blog style and URL! My blog is officially at www.allgrownupwithjra.com. I also have decided on a new style. In addition, my blog has been nominated to Healthline's Best Health Blogs of 2015!

To vote, click here or on the link below and in the “Contestants” search box, type “Grown," this will bring up my blog, All Grown Up with JRA. 

Voters can vote once each day via Facebook and once each day via Twitter. Voting is open until Jan 21. Feel free to share and thank you! http://www.healthline.com/health/best-health-blogs-contest

Disability Employee Awareness Month

"Invitation to Self-identify: During Disability Employment Awareness Month, I hope you will take a few minutes to report if you have a disability."

This was the title and first introductory sentence of an email I recently received from my employer. I am not sure why it bothered me and provoked such a visceral reaction from me. The topic of disclosure to my employers has been something that I have struggled with in the past. I have had some jobs where I have been very open about my JRA and other jobs where I felt it was unnecessary to ever mention it. At my current job, I have told my supervisor and some co-workers and even though I am certainly not hiding it from anyone, I am also not shouting about it at the top of my lungs. All of this is ironic, considering that I work in healthcare as an occupational therapist and work with kids with many different disabilities every day. You would think that I would feel more open and honest about discussing my JRA, but honestly it is something that I always initially struggle with revealing. 

I am often afraid to disclose my JRA at work because I do not want to be treated differently than any of the other employees. Although I know it is illegal to discriminate against people because of their disability, it is hard to not be worried about this. On the other hand sharing the impact my JRA has on my everyday life, may help if I have to ask for reduced hours or work accommodations. I continually struggle between these two thoughts.

I think one of the reasons this particular email caught me off guard is that it forced me to define whether or not I consider myself "disabled." The email from my employer defined disability as:

You are considered to have a disability if you have a physical or mental impairment or medical condition that substantially limits a major life activity, or if you have a history or record of such an impairment or medical condition.

They then listed a variety of disabilities such as cerebral palsy, diabetes, multiple sclerosis, PTSD and Bipolar Disorder. Rheumatoid Arthritis was not listed. Typically on a day to day basis I do not consider my JRA as causing me to have a disability. I work over 40 hours a week and my JRA does not impact my ability to perform my job. However, I am usually exhausted after working and would not be able to keep up with my physically and emotionally demanding profession if I didn't have my supportive husband. I also have to constantly juggle medical appointments in order to not miss too many work hours. Just managing my JRA on a daily basis requires extra effort and sacrifices so I am able to perform my job without any accommodations or concessions. 

I am still undecided about whether or not I am going to "declare my disability" to my employer on their human resource website. Identifying myself as disabled will not change how I perform my job, nor will it automatically provide me with any job accommodations. In essence it will not change anything for my benefit. Instead, I believe there are other ways to improve awareness about disabilities in the workforce that will be more beneficial than just declaring it on website.

Epic Pharmacy Fail

I recently discovered that my local pharmacy had been giving me the pediatric dose of Enbrel for the past 6 months! Yup. You read that right. Since January I have been receiving half the amount of medicine that I was suppose to be taking. I only discovered this mistake because I recently switched insurances and was requesting new prescriptions for my new insurance plan. My rheumatologist called me to clarify that I was actually taking the 25 mg "dosing kit," which is very rarely offered anymore, instead Enbrel typically comes in pre-filled syringes or auto-injectors. She was completely shocked about this dosing error, as her prescriptions had all been correct. Therefore, somehow my pharmacy had been giving me the wrong dose, month after month as I refilled it.

Now don't get me wrong. I actually really like my pharmacy. In fact, I found it very hard to call them and complain about this error, but I needed to make sure it wouldn't happen again. The pharmacist was literally speechless and didn't know what to say to me. I have used my local town pharmacy my entire life and even after moving away, I still traveled back home to continue using this pharmacy. It is a small family business and they know my whole medial history which has helped decrease many stresses and hassles over the past 28 years. I have been willing to pay a little extra money, instead of using mail order, to know that my prescriptions are handled correctly, will be ready on time and there are no surprises. Unfortunately, my trust was recently shattered. 

I know how lucky I am that even on half the intended Enbrel dosage, I still have felt OK. I know it could have been a whole lot worse. I am optimistic that now that I am on the correct adult dosage, I should continue to feel even better. Moving forward, I will most certainly check all of my prescriptions more thoroughly! 

The Stages of Hiking with JRA

On Wednesday I went on 7 mile hike. It was a very flat and level hike with little elevation. It was also on well kept, wide trails with few roots or rocks to navigate over.  No problem! I thought. Hiking 7 miles in the woods is something I do not decide to do frequently and as a result I am still recovering. However, throughout this hike, I realized I went through many emotional stages...

The Stages of Hiking with JRA

1. Excitement: I feel great! 3.5 miles each way, no problem. Let's do this! 
2. Wonderment: Nature is beautiful! Look at these trees, birds, the rushing river!
3. Motivation: Already one mile down. This is easy! 
4. Trepidation: My right knee is starting to ache...oh no, not even half way.
5. Reenergized: Sign says 1.8 miles to go! That's nothing!
6. Denial: Both knees and ankles are throbbing, but I must keep walking.
7. Anger: Why is this so hard, it's only 3.5 miles. 
8. Hope: Only .4 miles to go!
9. Fear:  As the path narrows and becomes filled with rocks and roots, I have fear with every step that my knees will give out and I will go tumbling into the river. 
10. Focus: I have to focus on every step I take, all of my effort and energy goes into making each step, no more nature, no more wonderment...
11. Relief: I made it to the top! Hooray! Must Sit Immediately. 
12. Anxiety: I know I have to complete this whole journey again to get home. 
13. Resilience: I have done this once, I can do it again...(and my legs are numb at this point, so it hurts less)
14. Pain: Once again, every step causes throbbing, stabbing and pain in both knees, ankles and my back.
15. Despair: Will this trail ever end...
16. Optimism: I see the bridge at the end of the trail, I can hear cars on the road, we are close!
17. Thankful: Although my body fought me, it did not fail me and I succeeded.
18. Fulfilled: I conquered the trail, conquered my JRA and completed my goal! (Now time for a well-deserved ice cream and bath!)

"So I have JRA..."

I recently booked a weekend away in October for my one year wedding anniversary! It's a strange feeling where it seems like just yesterday I was walking down that aisle, but at the same time it feels like we have been married for ages already. This milestone has caused me to reflect on how fortunate I was to find a supportive, caring and understanding partner when I was just seventeen years old.

Prior to meeting my husband, I dated on and off but struggled to find someone who understood the balance of helping me when I needed it, but not pitying me all the time. Some boyfriends went too far in helping me and made me feel like I was incapable of doing anything without assistance, while others seemed to be in denial that I had any limitations at all. Thankfully, my husband seemed "to get it" from the beginning. I still remember the day I told him I had JRA. We were kayaking together with a bunch a friends and were momentarily alone from the rest of the group. I had been wanting to tell him for a while, I wanted him to know before Junior Prom of course! I remember feeling so anxious about this disclosure and how he would react. I nervously said, "So I have JRA.." "Ok" He said. "Do you know what that means?" I responded. "Yeah" he said. And that was about the extent of our conversation! Granted we were only in high school and I am not sure either of us knew what that meant for our future together, but I was relieved that my JRA was a "non-issue" in our relationship. Now of course, having JRA has caused us to face some unique challenges together and our marriage has only just begun, but it has never stopped us from having the life we imagined 10 years ago as teenagers. However, I know that I am fortunate in finding my husband and this is not always the case.

As a result this post is dedicated to all the husbands, wives, friends, sisters, brothers, parents and caregivers who have supported those of us with JRA. Who have pushed us to complete our goals despite our limitations. Who have not accepted having JRA as an excuse for overcoming any challenge or obstacle that may lie in our paths. Who have rubbed our sore knees, massaged our swollen wrists and administered our injectable medications. Who have laughed with us, cried with us and carried us. We thank you...